As time past and the years began to add up i ventured a few times into online dating. Several times men would contact me, want to see a picture and never follow-up. Realizing that most men i was interested in were looking for younger i began to look closer at men in general. My married friends complained about how loud the TV was, how much they were tired of picking up after their wonderful husbands and i began to seriously consider if that was wanted i wanted.
Been there-done that kept resounding in my head. Mr. Right would be coming with far more baggage than i was interested in carrying, First of all i had bad knees, second of all i was getting in the age of too old to change and not willing to compromise. My husband of twenty three years had hurt me deeply. He promised to take care of me for the rest of my life but had decided that maybe he would prefer not to. My heart ached for many months from his rejection which i am certain raised my anxiety factor in welcoming someone in to to my life. I knew i never wanted to hurt that bad again.
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